came over tonight to try to write. couldn't. too tired. just wasted time. just as well. god, when i try to write something "serious", i sound STUpid. there's almost nothing i've ever written that i've thought is interesting, or good, or intelligent. it's like nicholson's batman leafing through michelle pfeiffer's photograph portfolio, "crap, crap, crap."

having a weblog is to writing what singing in the shower is to recording. everybody sounds good in the shower, but then you hear a recording of your voice singing, in the background on a video or something, and it's awful. same with writing here. i'm actually considered to be decently intelligent. then i read what i write. it's hopeless, you know? we're all given a certain amount and you just can't break through that intellectual ceiling. you're doomed.

-benjamin harris