"My studies have been broken up by this duty I am now performing. This is a source of great discontent to me...I am constantly yearning to return to those contemplations which I hope will lead to some substantial good...my duty is as constantly interposing itself and calling me away...pursuits which I feel...not of that importance...take the place of...studies...makes me look...labor...dull, uninteresting...disgust.

"I left off my studies at a critical moment, for I had reached that point where everything was unsettled."