Have you ever had it happen where you are writing something, something of some length, and you don’t finish it, you put off finishing it to the next day, and when you go back to it the next day your state of mind is different and hence your style of writing is different and you can’t merge the two states of mind, hence you can’t merge the two styles of writing and you have to start all over again in whatever new mood you’re in?...No? Alright then, fuck you. Well, I have! And I have had it happen frequently.

I started to write something on Friday and I was in a defiant, aggressive mood. I wrote it on the fly between appointments and didn’t finish. When I went back to it today my state of mind was all reasoned and intellectually and I couldn’t just tag that on to what I wrote Monday. An experienced trial lawyer once lectured us young 'uns to be the same person at the end of a trial as you are at the beginning. The jury is not going to believe a schizophrenic. Difficult to do in a heated thing like a trial but sound advice. So I had to start writing all over again today.

I have never noticed this in real writers, like Dickens or Hemingway; their styles of writing don’t change from chapter to chapter. Hemingway, in fact, used to deliberately leave a writing unfinished at the end of the day so that he wouldn’t have to face the terror of the blank page the next day. He'd just take up where he left off.

It makes me appreciate real writers.  A novel takes weeks, months, sometimes years to complete. The author has gone through every mood a person can have in those days, weeks, months and years and yet his or her writing style stays the same.  That’s impressive to me.